an excerpt from Mother Teresa: Come Be My Light...

You might think that I am looking only at the joy of giving up all, and bringing joy into the Heart of Jesus.  Yes, I look at these most, but I see also what suffering the fulfillment of these two will bring.  By nature I am sensitive, love beautiful and nice things, comfort and all the comfort can give--to be loved and love.--I know that the life of a Missionary of Charity--will be minus all these.  The complete poverty, the Indian life, the life of the poorest will mean a hard toil against my great self love.  Yet, Your grace, I am longing with a true, sincere heart to begin to lead this kind of life--so as to bring joy to the suffering Heart of Jesus.--Let me go, Your grace--let us trust Him blindly.--He will see to it that our faith in Him will not be lost.